What is there to say. Goodbye I guess. I never wanted it to end this way. I don’t know when we started hating each other like we do. Words that won’t come…Trying to say anything to make this pain stop. I can’t stand to even look in the mirror anymore. I hate what I have become. What you have made me. What I have made you. So now go…forget me. Don’t look back. I’ll think of you, even if you don’t think of me. It feels like all those years ago. Waking up without you near me. I didn’t hear your voice anymore. Now those days are back. The silence is coming. I can feel it. I need someone, anyone to hear me right now. I’ve never felt such pain. But as I said before, true sadness is the day I forget your name. I know you’ll forget mine. Am I so easy to forget? Not even friends anymore. I wish there was something I could say…anything I could do. But it’s too late now. Too late. So go…take all your shit. I don’t need you in my life. I’ll be fine. I can make myself believe these things. But who, I ask you is going to be here when I fall down? Who is going to care if I cry or not? Who will be there to tell me that nobody can hurt me anymore? Not you. Not anybody. I am truly alone now. Said goodbye to my best friend. And pretty soon I’ll be some girl you used to know. Cliche I know. But sometimes it’s the truth.
{March 22, 2010}
goodbyes
Hang in there.
Things will get better and time heals all non-fatal wounds. Always remember that you’re a part of something bigger. An ever growing clock-work creation smelted in the hottest of coals and quenched in the coldest of mountain streams. No matter the problem, hurt, or pain, it can be survived by realizing that you are one of a kind and no one can take that away from you.
~Drake