Truth

So I’ve been struggling for 3 days with a follow up to my last post. So much is going on right now I really don’t know what to write. I guess I should say the previous post was written in a moment of confusion, hurt, and pain, and I don’t want it to be misconstrued. So let me explain. It was no fault of anyone else’s that I was feeling the way I was. I have made many decisions and had actions I had carried out that led to the situation of the ‘Goodbye’ entry. The last three days have felt like a lonely spiral that I just want to correct, and I don’t know how to do that. When I said I had nobody here for me and I needed anyone to hear me, I was forgetting the fact that I do have that one person here I can always depend on to be here and hear me, regardless of what happens…all I have to do is tell him what I need. I have been very bad at telling the person I love most in the world what I need lately. For that I am sorry. I know that I put myself in this situation and that the road back to the days of June 14th may be a long one. But I hope I get there. I love you Jack, and I hope you know how much I need you. Always.

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